Brithday coming soon
Dunno why got this sudden kick
Dun feel like celebrating at all
sigh...
maybe cos i m getting old
every year i celebrate my brithday
i m one step closer to my grave
saddist thinking ***
lol

Anyway
so wad i can do now is to live my life fullest
been out late lately
never even been home for weeks
(as in slp in the afternoon & disappear at night )
how how how
i m down right headache
dunno why but i just can't deny such feelings
feels so stupidity...

All i want for my birthday is a miracle ...
~Someone to confide in absolutely
~More Cash
~Iphone
~Good relationship with my peeps
~Special someone ( who will just come along in life )

Today was a best & also worst day of my life...

when bottle tree village with esmond , jeremy , zhi rui , amanda .
went down there to fish and bbq since it's been a year when i went there again.

so well , my first throw was an F graded by jeremy cos i long time nv fish liao, then very very chui , weight still stuck in the rocks somemore, suckss.
2nd throw was AWFULLY WELL DONE cos i remember how to cast the rod, but the ending wasn't so perfect , the cast was pretty far but halfway, stuck again , but this time , the string was suspended to the rocky part too , so i have to move forward to remove it. then as soon as i step on to the rigid rocks, i fell , terribly cause the cut was relatively deep *sigh* must blame myself for being careless.

Pics here


Didn't really cry or wadever , so don't bother asking me, but certainly , it was okok since i m more worry about the excessive bleeding.
Oh ya , today must also thx to edlyn , cos early in the morning she "curse" me bring umbrella go out , in the end , the rain came even faster then expected and the fishing was stop.

We hang around the area where the pool table were last time and settle there playing poker cards.

How nice a day =X

Hi peeps , long time nv blog le, cos busy with alot of stuff, brithday coming soon n i m both happy and dissapointed.
18th brithday , commonly , to many people , they had 50% of their wish list completed and adding 20% more wants into their list.
But to me , sadly i have yet to attain even 10% of my wish list.
i guess at many point of time in people life, they would actually experience failure, accidents , miscalculation. But , again , to me i have wasted 30% of my life idling , experience different failure , encountering different learning process, and i know , whats yours is meant to be yours , but what you want you are to fight for it.
Hopefully , i would be able to make up for everything i did , studies, mistakes, friends, family and people who really care about me.

Well , march 27 was Agnes Birthday's chalet, had a wonderful afternoon , yet a tedious night, cos i had to take care of 2 drunkard, it was super funny when you see 2 drunkard together cos many funny things would actually happen. but when it boils down to the night , it was awfully unexpected. Anyway , me myself wanted to get drunk , but i nv had the chance cos i couldn't , the furthest i go is 4 bottle of standard volka with 6 can of 330ml of tiger/heleken plus 2 glasses of cocktail. yet , i can feel that i am still awake.
Friends always say i was forcing myself to stay awake, but i know the reason myself because i can never afford to get drunk , because if i were drunk , i couldn't be sure how to take care of others , just like the driver of the group are not to drink, because if he were drunk , the group would not be able to return ( stupid logic ). Sometimes , i just buy a few can of beer and drink before i sleep ( at least drink at home safe) rather be alone then to trouble others to look after me.

~Sigh~


To me , i know that there's someone out there, who is really good to me, making every effort to help me, understand me & make sure i m not alone.
but truthfully , i dunno why , but this situation was exactly like when i was pursuing someone i like. we always tried our best , and make sure we have done our best to moved their heart. but they always said that we were too good for them, they didn't deserve us. That's the common reason people always gave, and i told myself, you are really too nice to me , i didn't want to cross the line , fold the boundary.
And so i thought, i would never wanna be the good guy again , making every single effort to care and love someone to the max.

My good brother esmond told me Love was Lust Obsess Variety Extreme, how does these explain what a guy should do ??

~Guys~
Recently someone has been asking me, why didn't i have a girl friend ? who do i like ?
Frankly speaking , i don't really have an idea myself, i always told myself in the past , i want a girl friend because i wanted to be like every guy, i just wanted a girl cause it feels good to have a special accompany.

But now , i m telling you guys that , reasons i didn't have one was that i probably wasn't good enough, probably didn't met the right one, probably wasn't the right time. Even if i would get one , i would probably think trice, because i wanted to include the possibility to get married, not just lasting long .

Can i ask ?
How many of you actually thought of knowing your partner well ?
How many of you actually understand your partner desire ?
How many of you actually knows what your partner thinks ?
Is a relationship just because of accompany ?
Or is a relationship solely based on your understanding ?

I told a lot of you, why your relationship was so unstable was because you don't understand each other well enough. some of you only though of relationship of a mere accompany, some of you though of relationship as a needs and some even thought of relationship as a want.

But, how can a relationship ever go on with such thinking ?!
IF YOU LOVE THE GIRL, YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN PLANNING YOUR FUTURE WISELY
IF YOU LOVE THE GUY, YOU WOULD BE BEHIND HIM FOR EVERYTHING THAT HE DID
BUT SOME OF YOU ARE STILL KEPT UP IN YOUR OWN DREAM

Guys , especially the closest of mine , please plan for your future, i know we all wanted to have fun, chill out, and lead the life like our secondary school days, but that's all over. in a few years time, some of us would become father, some of us would be successful in their career , some would be contented with their normal lifestyle.
We have always wanted to do things on our own, things we do, we know, and we never would expect the needs to explain to other people. but sometimes, people cares that why they ask , that's why they bug you. Learn to appreciate them.


~to my junior~
I am awfully sorry , that i exploited your weaknesses , that both of you were not suitable , i tried , the very least to made you two up together. however , i guess his really wore out and tired , i tried knocking sense into him , but he still doesn't want to care about you anymore. i just hope you can put in more effort into your family and friends , appreciate what other do for you and let people appreciate your presence.

Hi guys , recently gotten kind of busy these days, work & work & work , very boring .
i need more jobs !!!
Ppl , intro me some jobs pls , i m dying out there already ...
Anyway , had the chance recently to intereact with kei , one of the band members from Ethe'real , was really interested in his red colour guitar . totally dressed to kill ><
shucks , how i wish i could have gotten one , my axe was that nice , just plain black... sigh ....

Upcoming Activities :
______________________
- Gym 2 times a week
- Swimming 2 times a week
- Working 4 days a week ( Night time only )
- Guitar Practices 1~3 times a week

Meanwhile , has to look for a band during these time^^

Now learning to pick up
- Lead Guitarist
- Drummer
- Bassist
- Vocalist no need cause i can sing ><

在这几天内，我想了很久。
姐姐告诉我，爱一个人并不一定要在一起，如果真的爱她，就不要刻意去强求。
我。。。
已经做到了
不再发个你简讯
不再出现在你面前
完完全全消失在你身后。。。

但你知到吗
也许你没在注意我
也许你也没有想我
也许你也不要见我

但。。。
着段期间
我。。。
没有一次不断的去想你
没有一次都不会去注意你
你坚决你的答案是消失
因为也许你以为这样我会忘了你
想我死心
想别让我步上你的后尘
白白得等候着
痴痴得守候着

我设么都明白
我设么都照你所做
但偏偏就不能放下你
人。。。
不管多狡猾
不管多矛盾
都骗不了自己的心


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只知道为了爱情
只知道为了你
只知道为了不再缠绵你

就这样慢慢过去
这样慢慢的放弃
就这样安静的离开你

虽然无法忘记
和你相处的过去
但还会为从前的愚昧
感到一切都很值得

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "thats her"....

And i have always wanted to tell everyone that, that was you ...
But ... you know , you never did , and never will ...